Feeling "post-y" this week

Wow, this is like, a bunch of days in a row or something for me.

Crazy.

We finished the baby registry at BRU today. I have all three linked on the side right now. Feel free to admire. :) We just added some other random items and toys today. Also, I found a "travel system" that I like much better that the old one. Well, it's the same system, different color.

The color is called Diaz. You can click on the name to view. It's really sweet. I really hope this baby is a boy, like the Dr. told us.

Oh, did I mention that I get to take my GTT next month? (Gluclose Tolerance Test)...an indicator of Gestational Diabetes. I guess I get to drink a ton of sugary crap and then they check my blood in an hour to see how I'm doing.

I suspect either I will be fine or I will have a major problem. The first one that I can think of is that I won't be able to keep the drink down, because I haven't been tolerating sugary stuff very well. I just don't like it. This baby is much more a meat baby.

Hooray for Cotton Babies!

So, registry is all set up there. Like, I said, it's probably more than we really need, so if we only get some of it, it's still a win.

Seems like our tax return is going to have to go on the ol' credit cards instead of for baby stuff. And that's okay, I guess. I have managed to whittle it down to under 200 owed to federal taxes, which is pretty good. It'll be better next year when we have a kid and can claim him.

But, for now, we'll just have to hope that people get us all our stuff we're registered for. haha! :)


Today was, apparently, kick me in the crotch from the inside day. Man, that sucks! It's quite painful. He's sleeping now, but there were times today where I was quinting in pain from getting kicked. The ribs and real low in the baby bag area are favorites too. He must only pick a few positions to be in OR I can only feel him in a few. What can you do? It's very much like having an alien living inside you for 9 months.

I'll be 25 weeks pretty soon here. Pretty crazy. Time seemed to have slowed down a bit here. I expect that by March, time will really start flying by.

Officially Frustrated!

So, I have been trying for the better part of the last hour and a half to try to add a slideshow of all the baby clothes that I am currently in possession of...and failing at it. I blame blogger. I tried in photobucket and I can't get the link to enter into the gadget and Picasa (you know, google's own photo product) and it keeps only displaying the first 5 pics and I can't figure out how to make it show more.

I don't get it. But, I sure do have a lot of clothes. They are sweet.

Maybe I'll figure it out soon.

EDIT: I WIN!!!!!! Too bad it took me five minutes to figure that out, as apposed to the hour and a half I spent before that.

Oh well, what can you do?

I have stolen Jake's computer for this project and now he can't use it! Hahahahahaha!

So, anyway, I spent WAY too much tonight on stuff, considering that I will probably get a lot of clothes for the shower, I'm sure. But, since I don't have a lot of clothes on my registry currently, maybe people will buy me the other stuff. Maybe?

Woot!

Oooooooooo-ah!

So, the place where I have been admiring cloth diapers since we decided we were going to cloth diaper has a little registry section! Sweet! Once it's set up, I'll probably link on the side, because I do those sorts of things. Then, I don't lose track of things too.

But, I'm pretty excited, because now I can try to register for some of that stuff instead of just thinking that we would probably have to purchase it all ourselves. I'm crossing my fingers on this one. And true to form, I've registered for WAY more than is probably necessary, although, if we did buy all that I registered for, we'd have to do wash WAY less that every other day. Maybe every two days.

Now I just wish I had a house that had laundry on the first floor.

EDIT: Hey, I do have a link on the side, but it's to the general website. I'll link the actual registry eventually.

Kicks 'n' stuff

The kicking continues. I tried to get Jake to feel it, because it's much, much harder than, say, last week, but he can't feel it on my stomach yet. Too bad. Maybe a few more weeks.

Had my next appt on Thursday. It was fine. The office was SUPER quiet, because everyone cancelled due to the freezing ass cold, but I got to leave work early, so I didn't care. And I was in and out very quickly. Blood results were fine. I still have B+ blood type. Nothing exceptional. Listened for the heart beat, which he had to put the heart listener thingy halfway into my belly button to hear it. I thought that was funny. He felt my tummy and said it was growing fine.

The only thing that bothered me was that he commented on my weight gain. Like it was bad. I have, to date, gained 8 pounds. 8! I didn't gain weight for months. Plus, that includes what I lost while I was so sick that never really showed up on the scale, because I am PREGNANT! Anna, his nurse, was happy that I gained weight. The Dr. seemed like I should be watching my weight. Granted, I wasn't light to begin with, so I shouldn't be gaining TOO much, but I'm up 8 pounds. 1 pound, at least, is the baby that I'm carrying. grrrr....

Whatev, I say. I do what I want. And if I want to drink choco milk all day long, then I will. Now, if I really start to sky rocket, then I will lay off a bit. But, at 24 weeks, I think that I'm just fine. 15-25 pounds is what they say you should gain if you're overweight to begin with. 25-35 if you're average weight. 25-40 if you were underweight. Eff off, Dr.!! :)

I also picked Elmbrook Memorial to go to as well, because it's 2 mins from the Dr.'s house, according to Anna. Which works for me. I signed up for the "Childbirth Express" class today too. $80.00, for the two of us. Which is okay. Plus, it's one Saturday of our time, instead of 4 weeks, one night a week. Yuck. I just really want the tour and what they do/don't do. I don't really care too much about the rest. I'm a wimp, so it's going to suck either way until I get that epidural. Woot!

I'm hungry, so it's lunch time.

Shower-y Thoughts Abound (and other things)

So, we've started to think about a baby shower nowadays.

The registries are started (and I added some sweet toys to the BRU one today). I'm still debating Target. I'm almost thinking that if we don't have enough on the registry or whatever, then people will either do gift cards or pick their own outfits out. Which I will promptly return to get stuff I like. Ha ha. :)

But, I'd rather just limit it. But, then again, BRU is rather limited in nature. As in, there are only 4 in WI and they are all over on this side of the state. So...I still don't know.

I do know that I get kicked a lot. He will go quiet for a few days (like the past two or so) and then crazy wild (like today). Maybe it was the OJ that I drank.

But, I'm making my own invites for the shower, because I LOVE doing that sort of thing. I still think about maybe starting to make invites and stuff for actual money, but I'm not sure how to start and if it's even worth it, you know? I have to do lots of research about that type of thing. Any extra funds sure would help us out though. So, I will continue to think about it. I think. I will probably forget eventually. Maybe I'll sit on the couch tonight and make notes.

My dad thought that I was nutz for making my own, but I had paper to use, stamps to use, ink, etc. all the tools that I would normally probably have to go buy. Or I did have to buy for the wedding invites. Plus, they don't have to be done until around March 1st (since right now, we're scheduled for April 4), so there's plenty of time. And I've already designed them and done a lot of the prep work to just slap them together, paste in the info on the inside and send them out. I should find my clear labels from the wedding invites and make sure that I have those too. I think my aunt is taking RSVP's. I think. I was making myself involved and then I though I should back off a bit. I'm a little controlling. Just a bit.

The "weird" thing that I am doing for this shower (and I'm sure some people would find it VERY weird) is that I'm including the boys. Because I have WAY too many guys that I am good friends with and I don't want to feel trapped with only girls. Frankly, I don't like girls that much. I know that I've talking extensively about this already, so I won't go into it again, but boys are invited. It'll be more like a party than the typical baby shower, I hope. I'm going with the kind of "Cinco de Mayo"/Mexican Fiesta theme, since I am technically due on May 6th (which is close enough to May 5th). Of course, I'm sure that I will be overdue based on that date, but that's ok. Mexican food, margaritas, non-alcoholic margaritas (for me, mostly), etc. Jake can bring his Spanglish CD and find a bunch of other music and I think that it will be a good time. If not, oh well.

The only bad thing is that Maggie can't make it because of work and that's very disappointing to me. I misheard her when I was talking to her about it and she will be in NY with the SLSO that night, because they are playing at Carnegie. BUT, that day (April 4th) works for Betsy and Brooke, so I can't change it. I am hoping to get her to come up another weekend and have Nims come down and we'll have our own "baby shower". And by baby shower, I mean we'll have dinner at Red Lobster and Maggie and I can watch Nims and Jake drink. My idea of a very good time.

Slowly getting more stuff out of the room. I'm thinking about starting the border tomorrow, putting up as much as I can until I run out and finishing it when the other roll arrives (I ordered it today). Dad is going to give us a door to put on the closet. The next project, of course, after the border is to put the closet together so it's a real closet, and not a closet plus weird hole.

In tummy news, I offically have one. It's almost out past my boobs. It varies depending on time of day, but, for the most part, it's out all the time. It's so weird, because I look "fat", but the sides are rock hard. Ask me to feel it sometime. Very strange. Also, my belly button is much less of an innie nowadays. I wonder how long it will take to move to outie. Probably right before I give birth.

Pregnancy is also full of weird pains. Like my pelvic bones. One side has been giving me sharp pains today. It happens on and off, since a month ago and I said something to the doc last appt and he didn't seem concerned. So, I'm not concerned, other than it's annoying and I have to sit down most of the day. What can you do?

I'm thinking about my leave from work too. I think that I'll get approved for 6 weeks, so I can take my time. I want to come back June 30th, so I don't get dicked out of a personal holiday, so I was planning on leaving April 30th. And a bunch of the women were like, I'd wait longer. Well, maybe you would, but I'm worried about that PH, so I'm just not sure. Of course, depending on how we're going in April, I could have him sooner than expected and then it won't matter. But, if the doc thinks that I'm not going to have him any time soon close to April 30th, I will probably wait longer. And of course, I get to spend 3 weeks vacation prior to all this leave pay. And I don't accrue sick time while I'm gone, SO therefore, when I get back, I'll have 1 PH left and maybe 16 hours of sick time. 3 days for the rest of the freakin' year. I can't wait for 2010 already, when my vacation will be normal again.

Forgive my preggo brain. I can't remember if I've talked about this stuff and how much. Now, it's time for us to eat. Which means that I'll probably be getting kicked in places I don't like soon enough. WOOT!

What's that behind me?! Oh, wait. It's just my butt

Which has been increasing in size as of late. Maybe it's just back to the normal size and because I lost weight in the beginning, I got used to it being small.

22 weeks now. I get kicked all the time. He stopped waking me up at 5am, which I was grateful for. I have an appointment in a couple of weeks. My controlling nature is starting to rear it's ugly head as I am feeling more and more dissatisfied with my doctor. Not that I don't like him, but he may be a little laid back for my high-maintenance personality. We'll see how the rest goes.

I did get the nursery painted. I won't post pics until I have the border up, because it looks a little silly the way it is right now. But, it's very very cool. I love it. I may try to tackle the border here shortly.

My Christmas present from Jakie was a rocking chair and ottoman from Target! We went around the city looking for a Target that had the one I wanted. We tried ours -- West Allis and then had to run out to West Milwaukee (like, right by Miller Park) to find it. We finally put it together today, as we had the Christmas tree in the way, which is now gone. It is very nice. I'm pretty excited.

We also went over to Babies R Us to register some more. I had started one online, and I wanted to add to it in person, because that's way more fun. And it was. We got a coupon for $5.00 off a $25.00 purchase, so when we were done, I bought a pillow to lay my tummy on when I'm sleeping and two really cute outfits. One is a pair of swim trucks and a t shirt and the other is a onesie with a bib that matches. We now have 4 outfits and a hat hanging in the closet. I have another outfit from Brooke (my SIL) from USC, but I still have to get a dresser to store such a thing.

I also have a small registry on Amazon.com, for my bedding, which they only have a little bit of on BRU. I'm still debating Target. I really, really should do Target, because it's so much more widespread, but I think that would just be really simple stuff -- like bottles, toys and clothes. I will think on it. BRU is just not that widespread around WI. Of course, you can order online, but sometimes, that's just not that fun! :)

Also got some very cool baby stuff from Kristine and Josh for Christmas. A little picture frame, some scrapbooking stuff, etc. So, I bought the book I will use for a baby scrapbook. I bet you anything, I will have a baby scrapbook finished before my wedding one -- mostly because, after 3 years (for my paid for album) and 2 years (for paid for reprints), I still don't have the pictures! Can you believe that?!

Moral of the story there is always have a friend who is an amazing photographer do your wedding pictures. Because it will be a better deal, you will get the proofs on DVD and you won't have some idiot dumping pictures that you might want to keep. As we did. Plus, they were JUST learning to use digital photography on our wedding (which should have been some sort of discount), so a lot of the pictures were TERRIBLE!

Oops! Off on a little rant there.

But, at least it reminds me to go email them again about the stupid pictures. *roll eyes*

I can't wait to get more baby stuff. Actually, what I am really excited to get is my cloth diapers. Kristine found one of the ones that I want at Target in GB, so I actually got to look at them in person. I like them even more now. I can't decide if I want to get 24 of the one size diapers and just use them all the way through or get 12 of the AIO extra small size for when he's little and still has an umbellical cord waiting to fall off. I think it would be prudent to get the 24 one size and maybe 6 of the AIO, just in case. I could always sell them online if I didn't need them. We'll see what Jake sez. That's a lot of money in the short term, but not in the long term.

Nursery stuff!

I know what I forgot last night! I went and bought my paint from Menards for the nursery! YAY!!! I have big plans to clean everything out of the room and the closet. Once Jake gets his Christmas gift from my parents, we'll be able to reframe and drywall the closet so it's a real closet, instead of a deep hole in the wall, surrounded by paneling. One that I throw random crap into.

We'll get some really nice shelving, etc. too.

I'm going to have a to find a decent place for my crinoline from my wedding dress...actually, I should ask Liz if she would like it. They aren't exactly cheap and I don't need to hang onto it for a million years. Hmm...

Facebook message, here I come!

Anyway, I will post pictures when i get a chance. I plan on painting next week while I am off and so it should be all pretty by this time next week!

Half-Baked

I'm over half way done now.

I was looking at my little ticker box off to the side there and I have been pregnant for around 125 days (I know it says 128, but I really haven't been preggo that long, yet).

The reality of the situation is that I am probably due closer to mid-May than the beginning of May. And that's okay.

I am getting kicked every day now. It started a few weeks ago and he has his patterns. He must have slept a lot today, because I didn't feel him most of the day. But, he wakes up between 5 and 5:30!! He kicks me and it's uncomfortable now -- I can't imagine when he's big enough for others to feel. He's kicking me as I write this, in fact.

I finally "fatted" out of my pants last week. I have my three pairs of Old Navy maternity jeans and that's all for the pants area. I tried to buy a cool pair of velvety/dressy pants, but they are WAAAAAAY too big. I have to send them back with my other shirts, if I can find them.

Had another doctor's appt yesterday. Uneventful, as usual. Do I have questions, no, listen to heartbeat, feel my tummy to see if I've grown enough and I'm on my way. I did have a lot of blood drawn for the rest of my OB panel testing, but I doubted that they had the results back for me today, with the snow. So, I'll call next week and just make sure everything was a-ok. I don't expect any big surprises.

Next appt is Jan 15.

I think I may have mentioned it before, but my mom and aunt are planning on throwing us shower some time, probably in March or April -- a big, "Jack and Jill" (I guess that's what they call them) shower, for the girls and the boys. I have so many male friends that I don't want to feel like I can't have all my friends. Besides, I did the girl only thing for wedding showers and my bachelorette party and I really wished that Jake and I had just had a big ass drinking party at the house for everyone. I mean, Jake could have done something with just the boys, like he did, but a big "The House" party really would have been perfect.

I'm off to try to buy more Christmas presents online and hope that they get here in time.

QMA, all the way

Despite my posturing to the contrary, I have pretty much known that I am having a boy the whole time. My uncle has two boys, my cousin has two boys. I now have my own boy. Those Foster family genes towards boys are strong.

I will have to wait a bit longer to have my Lily. And that is okay.

I've got a Ryan Joshua instead.


He looked perfect in the ultrasound too. It was awesome.

His head is facing down toward my right leg, so those movements that I was feeling was either me getting punched or head-butted. Either way. It's still funny.

We are both very happy and I am thrilled to know the gender, so I can stop saying "it" so much. And now, I can finally pick out some baby things...in boyish colors.

And I am sort of glad that I picked a 'gender neutral' bedding that is predominantly blue.

So, things are really looking good for him. It'll be awesome! :)

Made a decision today...

We've (and by we, I mean, me) decide to try cloth diapers for the baby. I just can't a) justify spending so much money on disposable diapers -- which we have conservatively calculated at $500.00 a year and b) put all that garbage in the landfill.

Babies are gross anyway, so I guess we can handle a little more grossness.

I found some really sweet ones. It's not all diaper pins and folded pieces of cloth wrapped around a baby butt anymore.

Click here and click on the bum Genius link on the side menu. Currently, I am planning to purchase 12 bum Genius AIO in x-small for the newborn size and then 12 bum Genious One Size for regular baby diapers. They have snaps that can change the size of the diapers to fit.

I'm pretty excited about trying this out. It's better for the environment. Okay, I'm sure it evens out, because you're using more water to do more wash, but as long as I'm not adding to the landfills, I think I'm okay here.

If it doesn't work out, I'll probably try to sell what we haven't used somewhere. The best part is that we will have them forever basically for the next kids.

Getting ready to have a nursery has also made me realize that this house is really only going to support 1.5 kids. Once we are preggo with #2, moving will be top priority. In fact, moving may need to be done before we try for #2. But, maybe I am getting ahead of myself here. That's how I roll.

I also have picked out my bedding and I don't remember if I posted that or not. I guess I should go back and check if I did. If not, click here to look. I bought one roll of the border, so I could pick out paint colors, which we did yesterday. Now, I just have to go back and purchase them.

I'm thinking about using Satin on the walls instead of eggshell -- probably easier to clean and it's not as shiny as semi-gloss; plus, I can buy the little jugs for paint instead of the gallons. I want to see how little paint I can use. I have plans to pain the top blue, the bottom yellow stripes, with the border about light switch height. Probably over my vacation time at Christmas, just because I will have free time to do it. A little bit anyway.

I'm really excited for Tuesday, but if my appt gets cancelled because of the SNOW (!!!!), I will be PIST! PISSSSSST! I'm very hopeful that it will not, because this doc has a really full schedule. Cross your fingers and toes for me. :)

Some number of weeks...

I think 18. Yes. 18 weeks.

I think that I got my first kicks -- like actual kicks -- this week. I was sitting on the couch on Thursday night and all of a sudden I feel this sensation like I am getting flicked from the inside. This is probably the weirdest sensation that I have ever felt. Hands down.

I felt a little bit today while the cat was laying on my belly this morning too. I expect that I will probably be feeling more and more as time goes on here.

I got the maternity clothes from Old Navy this week too. They are pretty good too. I got two fleece zip up jackets -- which are slightly big. Most of this stuff is to grow into over the winter months. I have a sweater that I am wearing currently, which is awesome. I got a hoodie with a fake fur lined hood. Couple shirts. A pair of jeans, which while they are too big for me currently, in a month or two, they will be totsweet.

I have two shirts that I will send back -- one looks like a muumuu that is a shirt; one is just ugly. It looked cute online, but not so much on me.

If only Maurices started making maternity clothes, I would be in! But, Old Navy works too. And the jeans are really nice. I will probably get a couple pairs, because I am dangerously close to being too "big" for my regular jeans held closed with a hair tie.

Anatomy ultrasound on TUESDAY!!! So, hopefully, at 4 pm or so, I will know if I have Lillian or Ryan growing in here. And yes, I think that we have actually decided on a boy name, which surprised me. Maybe this baby will be born and we'll totally change our minds...but I doubt it.

I'll be back at Tuesday, probably between 5 and 6 to spread the news! :)

I finally win at something!!!

So, instead of my gender/anatomy ultrasound being RIGHT before Christmas, it's Dec. 9th at 4pm!!! YAH!!!

I called the doc to get the number for the place where Dr. Stadler sends people, just to get my appt set up well in advance and when I called the receptionist she was confused as to why I was waiting so long, considering I will be 18 weeks by their date on this Wednesday.

Plus, this doctor is going away for the holidays (he will be gone 17th through 27th to Germany) and has very limited appt space as it is.

So, the only available appt was Dec. 9th at 4pm, basically. So, I took it and made sure it was okay with Dr. Stadler -- I talked to his nurse, Anna, whom I LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! And it was fine -- she basically told me that they would defer to what the geneticist said about my appt time.

SWEET!!

So, as I said on Facebook, I get to find out if it's a EAI or a QMA on Dec. 9th!!! HOORAY!!!

Oh, and also if the baby is healthy. I guess that's good too.

I finally broke down...

I bought some maternity clothes today, from Old Navy. I am really going to new them soon, so it's not a bad buy. Plus, they had some good deals from over the weekend. I think I got pants, a sweater, three shirts and some pullovers, etc. It was probably more than I should have spent, but meh. I'm sure that I will end up returning some of it, just because.

I'm not in the mood to try to go to Old Navy at Grand Ave. at Christmas to find maternity clothes.

I have also noticed that I have many more freckles. I know that pregnancy increases melatonin production, but I look like I've been out in the sun, like during the summer time. I've got new freckles everywhere.

I am slowly looking more pregnant. My ability to eat a lot is still below when I am not preggo, but maybe it will return soon. I doubt it. But, that's probably good. Maybe I can get back down under 200 and stay there. 175 would be perfect. :)

I am planning on calling the doctor next week and asking if I can have the information to schedule my appt for my ultrasound, so I can at least go in when I have time off. Dr. Stadler is pretty reasonable, so I'm sure it will be fine with him. If I hadn't been so tired at my last appt, I probably would have just brought it up then, but I didn't. Oh well. I'm sure it will be fine and then I know for shizzle that I can get in on Dec. 23rd. I may even ask if it's okay if I go a couple of days before my next appt, so at least we could kill two birds with one stone and talk about the ultrasound at that appt, you know? We'll see how he feels about that. But, I don't want to have to take extra time that week, so I will probably just wait until the 23rd to go. It'll be fun right before Chritmas.

Also, my mom said that she and my aunt were going to throw me a shower at some point, but asked if I wanted like girls only or mixed crowd. I went for mixed crowd, because then I can invite the guys that I'm friends with. And Jake can come too. He's having a baby too, you know? Between family and friends, I'm thinking that it will be a bigger party. So, we'll see what my aunt and mom think. Definitely can't be at my parents, I'm sure, especially since it will probably have to be in late March/early April, which means the weather could be questionable. So, that's fun.

Until next time...

16 weeks

Wow! Neat.

I had my appt on Thursday. It took me 10 mins or so. I waited for 45 min. Oops. No more 4:45 appts. I went with a 3:15 on Dec. 18th for my next one. Hopefully, he won't be so backed up by 3:15 on a Thursday.

The other problem is that they schedule 15 min segments of time. So, if someone takes 20 or 25 and the doc takes 5 to do his post appt paperwork, then that's already 15 mins behind and repeat. They should really be scheduling 20 mins segments.

But, we got the heartbeat and everything. So, four more weeks and THEN I get to have my gender ultrasound! I don't want to WAIT!!!! I almost want to call him back and ask if I can have the paperwork and schedule the u/s before my next appt, so we can talk about it at that one. He likes to wait until between 18 and 20 weeks. I'll be 20 weeks at my next appt, so I'll be closer to 21 before I have the stupid ultrasound! I'M SO IMPATIENT!!! Plus, I wanted to pick some stuff for Christmas, in case parents felt like getting baby stuff. I do have my bedding picked out, so maybe I can get some of that for Christmas. I may order one roll of the border for myself, so I can pick out paint colors and paint while I'm on vacation before Christmas. We'll see.

Nothing new to report otherwise. Just me being impatient. I want to know!!! :)

15 weeks

I think that I FINALLY turned the corner this week. I have come to the point where I feel pretty good when I wake up and slowly kind of feel worse as the day goes on, but it's nothing horrible. If it had been like this the whole time, I would have been golden.

I have thrown up twice this week, but that's okay. Once Monday morning, out of the blue after my shower and once Thursday night, when I got home from work, again, out of the blue. That totally sucked.

My next appt. is Thursday. Maybe I can even have gained a pound or two then. I'll be somewhere in the neighborhood of 16 weeks then. I should be able to get my AFP test and my scan scheduled. Hopefully, I can go before Thanksgiving, but if it's after, it's after. It will def. be before Chritmas.

Nothing new to report other than that I am feeling much better this week. Although, I learned a good lesson yesterday about being preggo -- you should always ask how your food is going to be cooked. Jake, Dad and I went to this Japanese restaurant close to our house last night and I got Filet Mignon Teriyaki. Well, when it arrived, it was very rare. RARE.... So, I had to send it back for more cooking, so I could eat it. So, next time, I have to make sure that I ask about the amount of cooking on said steak. They were very nice about it. All you really have to say is 'pregnant' and everything is okay. :)

I am also probably going to go to Target and look at preggo clothes today. Even with the minimal weight gain, my stomach continues to grow and I will very soon be out of pants that I can wear around the waist. I have one pair that's doing okay, but the other pair was out to the edges on the hair band that I am using to close it. And my shirts are getting shorter around my tummy. So, it's gonna be hanging out and nobody wants that. ha ha.

There are Old Navy with maternity clothes around, but the closest is the one at Grand Avenue and I would really have to have a lot of gumption to go down there, esp. w/ Christmas coming up. We'll see...

Anyway, I'm going to pee. Story of my life.

14 weeks and whatever

The nausea continues....

I do okay if I can rest, but work kills me. Seriously.

I was doing pretty well last week. Monday was good, Tuesday was better. Wednesday...I waited too long to eat breakfast and things went down hill pretty freakin' fast. By Thursday, I looked like hell and I barely had the energy to haul my body around work. I tried to eat soup and an apple for lunch -- things that normally would make me feel okay and it was not good. I felt worse, as if that were possible.

So, I came home early on Thursday and rested upstairs for a couple of hours. Then, I gave up on life altogether and took my zofran, which I have really been trying to stop. I still looked terrible, I guess, because Jake came home and said as much. It didn't really bother me, because I felt too bad to care.

BUT, I was better yesterday and today. So, I'm hanging in there.

If it's not nausea, it's indigestion. It's really frustrating for me. I'm such a control freak and I don't take change well. And currently, I've got something going on in my body that I have absolutely no control over, which makes me sad. Depressed. Frustrated. So many feelings.

Only 6 more months to go, right? :)

Cross your fingers and think girl for me.

In pregnancy related news:

Friday morning, I walk into my boss's office and she proceeds to "talk" (i.e. reprimand) at me for making a silly typo on a document that I had to send out for a new customer -- ordinarily, not a big deal. However, it was in conjunction with me not double checking my work on something else and I got talked at. I think that it was more frustrating for me because she asks me what's going on with me. Those type of errors are totally out of character for me, which she said as much, and it's just like, YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!!!!! I'm PREGNANT!!! It's not like I'm the same old same old for 9 months and then a stork brings a baby at the end. These old ladies forget what that was like, I think. Plus, I think that I am having a more difficult time with everything that most women. I can't tell you how draining it is to be nauseous 24-7. But, those type of errors happen. IDK why I typed 57.56 instead of 57.25!!! WHO CARES!!! It's $.31!!!! JEBUS!! So, I was a little frustated with that. Plus, since I've been totally burnt out from work for the past 2 months (basically the whole time that I've felt sick), so I just don't care when I screw up. I'd prefer to be fired almost. Well, okay, not REALLY, but you know what I mean. I haven't had a real vacation since early July and I don't get one until the end of December. That's a long freakin' time. I was going to ask if I could take a day or two without pay, but now that I'm on the radar as "not a good employee" (which is such a bunch of bullshit, I know that there was more that was not said about that to me, but I couldn't take much that morning and started crying almost immediately, which shut my boss up pretty fast, because she felt bad then), I'm sure that it would be out of the question. No matter how much I would need it.

Anyway, that's my rant/vent for this week. Hopefully, there's not more next week. I just want to stay off the radar and do my job. Or I'll just go do something else. I'm not picky at this point.


My next appt is November 20th at 4:45pm. Hopefully at that appt, I will get to schedule my AFP test and my anatomy scan (hopefully, including GENDER!). I also picked out my bedding, for sure. I'll post a picture at some point. It's pretty gender neutral, I think. And it's got sheep on it. :)

13 weeks or so...

I'm an idiot. I forgot to unblock my blog when I made it public. Sorry if you've been trying to read it! Geez.

Anyway, so, I thought that I might have a UTI yesterday, so I called the OB/GYN to see if I should come in to see them or go to my GP. They asked me to come in to see them and the doc was even going to be in the office for another patient, so I got to see him briefly. But, since I was there, he tried to find the heartbeat through my tummy and SUCCESSS!!!! The extra s is because it's extra sweet.

So, I don't go back to the doc until Nov. 20th! And then, very soon after, I think, I will get to do my testing and my gender scan! Woot! I really really really want to know what we're having! Then I can start buying like a crazy person. But, I really want a girl. Like, really badly. Because then, if I want, I never have to do this again. I don't care what people say, I have had a very hard time with this whole process and I'm not sure if I want to do it again. But, if it's a boy, I'll be happy, but not as much as if it's a girl. In fact, I'll probably cry. Hey, I'm just being honest. :)

No other new news on the baby front. My stomach is starting to stick out more and more, but I can still fit into my jeans, so I'm good. :)

12 weeks 1 day

Well, I made it. It's the birthday and I am still preggo.

So, I admitted it on my blog. Not that anyone reads that anymore.

I don't think that I'll admit it at work until someone else calls me out on it. I just don't feel like sharing stuff with the rest of my group. I'm just not that excited about yet. Maybe when it seems more real to me. I just don't believe yet. Which is silly of me.

Still feel sicky, BUT, I have been taking my zofran, which REALLY helps out a lot AND I think that I have been feeling better in general. Hopefully, in a few more weeks, I will be feeling much better. I'm hopeful.

11 weeks 2 days

And I still feel like throwing up at any given moment.

Such as right now. I don't know if it's because I digest food SOOOO slowly now that my stomach feels like death or what. But, I seriously feel like I'm going to have to dash for the bathroom any moment. And that just sucks.

I mean, I guess it's a good thing, but it's official: I do not like being pregnant.
I find it to be hard on me, considering that I have trouble with changes and every day is something new.

Jake's mom is here right now and it's wonderful. But, I never do anything. I've just been sitting around and doing nothing because I feel so terrible most of the time.

Ugh, seriously. I've got that watery feeling. I feel like just getting up and doing it so it's done with.

Nothing new otherwise. Next doc appt is Nov. 6th at 4:45pm, so I won't miss any work. I will be 14 weeks by then, so we should be hearing a heartbeat in the office pretty well. I think maybe I could even have a gender scan sometime in November, if lucky. Maybe early December. I'll have to see what the doc says.

I'm getting some pressure from one of the older ladies at work who knows that I am preggo to tell people. I will, when I feel confident about this. And I'm not sure when that will be. I said that I would tell people when I bring treats in next Monday (for my Sunday birthday), but we'll see. I don't feel like disclosing. And frankly, being pressured to tell people a) makes me want to do the opposite and b) pisses me off.

Oh well. I shouldn't be that upset about it. My feelings are that everyone who I feel should know, knows and the only reason that this lady knows is because she asked me about it and I didn't deny it. If she hadn't asked me, then she wouldn't know either. so there.