8 weeks

You may be saying to yourself: What? How was she 7 weeks on Monday and 8 weeks on Wednesday?

I'm just that amazing.

Actually, the real answer is that the baby was measuring ahead of where I believed I was, so I gained almost a whole week this week. On Monday, I was carrying a baby that was 7 weeks and 5 days. So, my official due date (for now, because I truly believe that it will change again) is May 6, 2009.

The bad part was that I started bleeding Monday night. That sucked. It slowed down over night and pretty much came to a halt yesterday. I had a bit more today, featuring TMI, so I won't share it here.

But, I am not worried because the ultrasound was really good and the doctor was happy about it. I have an appt on October 2nd, and I think that we might try to find the heartbeat with the doppler again (we did Tuesday, when I was freaking out and went it to make sure he thought like I did -- that the bajingo ultrasound had irritated my cervix, along with the transducer gel.

The doctor's office was great and everything. They really are good for me.

I love being 8 weeks now. I'm just that much closer to being out of the 1st trimester, when I can start admitting to it. Until then, I will deny when asked. And for the record, when this is more public to be read, THIS is the reason that we didn't come for Homecoming. A) I would have been dead tired and in no shape to camp out with Nims and B) I couldn't drink anyway and what fun is the parade if you can't drink mimosas? So, I will think of all of you while taking the weekend to relax and keep myself healthy.

I was feeling really good on Monday -- like TOO good. And now I'm back to feeling just generally tired and nauseous. It makes me feel good, to be sick. I know that things are okay.

The next month is the scariest part for me. I've been here before, as I've said, only to wind up with nothing. But, based on my feelings and symptoms so far, I have NO problems what so ever. Just having Dr. S say that my next one would be perfectly okay has made it so.

I hope it's a girl. Then, if I don't want to do this again, I don't have to...ha ha! At least my kids will have cousins that are close to the same age, whenever that happens. A couple years difference really isn't that much.

7 weeks 1 day

Had my first ultrasound yesterday. Still waiting on the doctor to get the results. I called yesterday about just making an appt to come and speak with the doctor about the results, but they said that he likes to wait to review the report before he tells me when to return.

However, last night, around 6:00, I started to bleed. Red. And not like spot. Bleed. I'm thinking that its the transducer gel mixing with a burst blood vessel or an irritated cervix. I hope. I am having sharp pains near my pelvic bone up front, and I had those sorts of pains last time. Also, I keep having pains near my ovaries.

I am concerned with what the report says, essentially. What if there is something of concern in there and I have to WAIT two DAYS to learn the results? I am thinking that even though I really like this doctor, I am going to have to change boats mid stream, because I need a place that does the blood work and ultrasounds in house. I can't keep waiting two days for results when it's an emergency, which is what I think would happen.

And he has limited office hours essentially too. All day Monday, Tuesday morning and Thursday afternoon. that's it. What if I have a problem on a Friday? I'm screwed? And I have this ultrasound report to go over -- but, if I do need to come in, if I can't get in Thursday after work, I have to wait until Monday? And half the time, I can't get an appt after I am done with work, which is really frustrating. Why can't docs have better hours?

So, I'm frustrated and worried. Not good. My biggest concern, besides the bleeding if the fact that suddenly, I'm not as tired, not as nauseous. Still hungry though. And my boobs still hurt, which I guess is good. I'm having some cramping too. I just don't understand this -- I saw a heartbeat, on the ultrasound at 8 am. By 6pm, I'm bleeding red? I am more convinced than ever there is something wrong with me and I need to find out what it is. Now.

6 weeks 2 days

I had another blood draw on Monday. My "appt" with the doc on Monday was really just to make sure I was feeling okay and to get my paperwork to set up the ultrasound at Elmbrook Memorial Hospital.

My 28 DPO (days post ovulation) blood draw was at 29,461. Into the calculator...still doubling every 60 hours (2 1/2 days). Which is pretty impressive for being that high.

Of course, the high levels and the rapid doubling make me feel like total shit every two days. Yuck.

Still very tired. I'm hungry a lot, but I don't feel like eating much. Like, right now. I choked down two pieces of pizza for dinner at 6:15. I'm already hungry again, but I don't know what to eat and I don't feel like eating that much.

My ultrasound is on Monday at 7:30 am. All I want is to see a baby with a heartbeat. That's all that I care about. Seriously.

5 weeks 4 days

I did my next blood draw on Tuesday night. Basically, I ran from work to the doctor's office, got my blood work order and went cross the street to my GP's office, where they take blood and basically snuck my way in before the blood tech left for the night. They will have longer hours starting October, but currently, they close at 5. And the place by my OB is done at 4. Grrrr...

So, my results were done by Wednesday. I picked the perfect time to call, b/c the doc had just walked in and looked at my results:

My HCG was 5144!!!!! Holy crap! That equals a doubling time of 1.5 days. Every day and a half from Friday at noon to Tuesday at 4 my level had doubled. Which is great. They like it to double every 3 days. My progesterone was down to 17.9, which was strange, considering that I was on the prometrium since the last blood work, essentially, but maybe that's why is was so high. I'm still on it, just to be sure.

I am feeling so good about this pregnancy. I'm kinda hoping there might even be two in there -- I'd take a two for one deal. Make up for one of these miscarriages.

I have been VERY tired and pretty much nauseous most of the time. I have been getting hungrier lately, which is good. Before when I would get hungry, I would just feel sick instead.

My first doc appt is on Monday, which coincidentally is my first EDD. Hard to be sad about that, when you're at an appt for a different baby.

I hope that they go looking for things on Monday or I will be disappointed that I don't get to see anything. From what the doc and receptionist/nurse said, seems like I will just be talking. Talking about what, I don't know...

I'm feeling so good about everything, I even started a "wish list" at Target, which nobody knows about. However, I have it filled with mostly girl things. I want a girl. I want my Lily.

5 weeks 0 days

Had my first appt and blood work last week.

The doc appt was quick and it was good. The doc just did a quick internal exam, which was fairly painless and then, since I was really diluted in the pee dept for the urine test, we drew blood on Friday afternoon.

He called with the results today: 796 at 18 DPO!! Better than the 2nd time, which is all that I care about! And my progestrone was 24.9, which is good too. I wasn't on the Prometrium yet then, so it should be even better now.

I got back on Wednesday for the next check. I should get those results back Thursday and then we'll probably schedule the first u/s. I'll probably try to get an appt where I don't have to miss work to do it. We'll see though. I might have to go to a specialist to have the u/s done and then get called about the results like the blood work. Hopefully not though.

Things are good. I'm pretty tired all the time and either nauseous or hungry. I am feeling very good about everything so far.

4 weeks 2 days

So, 'tis true. My eggo is preggo.

I am VERY tired. More tired than I remember being the last two times. Slightly nauseous at times. Thirsty.

My first appt with the doc is tomorrow. I just wanted to get a pee test to verify that I am preggo, estimate due date and such. But, the nurse said that the doc might do an exam. I hope it can wait. I'm due pretty soon for my yearly, but the longer I can wait, the better.

By MY calculations, I am due May 11, 2009. We'll see how much I have to fight with the doc about it. AND, if I do have to fight too much, I will either go back to my GP for prenatal care OR I will try my friend from work Heidi's doctor by Mayfair.

Too bad all of this is being posted for my reading only. This won't be public until at least 14 weeks (read: two and one half months) and maybe later. I'm going to hold out for as long as I can this time. Including hiding my tummy with belly bands for as long as possible. I DO wear tight clothes though, so I don't know how easy it will be.

4 weeks 0 days

So...I got something that looked like this today:



Interesting...

I didn't think that I was, so guess what I did all weekend: Drank. 4 beers on Friday night, a margarita on Saturday night and a Shandy on Sunday night. Whoops.

I think it'll be okay. The other doc said last time that the baby has a way to protect itself for when the mom doesn't know it's there -- the yolk sac provides all the nourishment (rather like a chicken egg) until the placenta takes over.

I had some cramping last week, which I attributed to my girlie no-no time coming, but I'm starting to think that it was implantation. Even if this turns out to be chemical, I have had absolutely NO SYMPTOMS this time, other than getting really really tired earlier at night.

Of course, that test could have been bullshit. But, for now, I believe. See you in May.