Saturday, November 29, 2008

I finally broke down...

I bought some maternity clothes today, from Old Navy. I am really going to new them soon, so it's not a bad buy. Plus, they had some good deals from over the weekend. I think I got pants, a sweater, three shirts and some pullovers, etc. It was probably more than I should have spent, but meh. I'm sure that I will end up returning some of it, just because.

I'm not in the mood to try to go to Old Navy at Grand Ave. at Christmas to find maternity clothes.

I have also noticed that I have many more freckles. I know that pregnancy increases melatonin production, but I look like I've been out in the sun, like during the summer time. I've got new freckles everywhere.

I am slowly looking more pregnant. My ability to eat a lot is still below when I am not preggo, but maybe it will return soon. I doubt it. But, that's probably good. Maybe I can get back down under 200 and stay there. 175 would be perfect. :)

I am planning on calling the doctor next week and asking if I can have the information to schedule my appt for my ultrasound, so I can at least go in when I have time off. Dr. Stadler is pretty reasonable, so I'm sure it will be fine with him. If I hadn't been so tired at my last appt, I probably would have just brought it up then, but I didn't. Oh well. I'm sure it will be fine and then I know for shizzle that I can get in on Dec. 23rd. I may even ask if it's okay if I go a couple of days before my next appt, so at least we could kill two birds with one stone and talk about the ultrasound at that appt, you know? We'll see how he feels about that. But, I don't want to have to take extra time that week, so I will probably just wait until the 23rd to go. It'll be fun right before Chritmas.

Also, my mom said that she and my aunt were going to throw me a shower at some point, but asked if I wanted like girls only or mixed crowd. I went for mixed crowd, because then I can invite the guys that I'm friends with. And Jake can come too. He's having a baby too, you know? Between family and friends, I'm thinking that it will be a bigger party. So, we'll see what my aunt and mom think. Definitely can't be at my parents, I'm sure, especially since it will probably have to be in late March/early April, which means the weather could be questionable. So, that's fun.

Until next time...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

16 weeks

Wow! Neat.

I had my appt on Thursday. It took me 10 mins or so. I waited for 45 min. Oops. No more 4:45 appts. I went with a 3:15 on Dec. 18th for my next one. Hopefully, he won't be so backed up by 3:15 on a Thursday.

The other problem is that they schedule 15 min segments of time. So, if someone takes 20 or 25 and the doc takes 5 to do his post appt paperwork, then that's already 15 mins behind and repeat. They should really be scheduling 20 mins segments.

But, we got the heartbeat and everything. So, four more weeks and THEN I get to have my gender ultrasound! I don't want to WAIT!!!! I almost want to call him back and ask if I can have the paperwork and schedule the u/s before my next appt, so we can talk about it at that one. He likes to wait until between 18 and 20 weeks. I'll be 20 weeks at my next appt, so I'll be closer to 21 before I have the stupid ultrasound! I'M SO IMPATIENT!!! Plus, I wanted to pick some stuff for Christmas, in case parents felt like getting baby stuff. I do have my bedding picked out, so maybe I can get some of that for Christmas. I may order one roll of the border for myself, so I can pick out paint colors and paint while I'm on vacation before Christmas. We'll see.

Nothing new to report otherwise. Just me being impatient. I want to know!!! :)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

15 weeks

I think that I FINALLY turned the corner this week. I have come to the point where I feel pretty good when I wake up and slowly kind of feel worse as the day goes on, but it's nothing horrible. If it had been like this the whole time, I would have been golden.

I have thrown up twice this week, but that's okay. Once Monday morning, out of the blue after my shower and once Thursday night, when I got home from work, again, out of the blue. That totally sucked.

My next appt. is Thursday. Maybe I can even have gained a pound or two then. I'll be somewhere in the neighborhood of 16 weeks then. I should be able to get my AFP test and my scan scheduled. Hopefully, I can go before Thanksgiving, but if it's after, it's after. It will def. be before Chritmas.

Nothing new to report other than that I am feeling much better this week. Although, I learned a good lesson yesterday about being preggo -- you should always ask how your food is going to be cooked. Jake, Dad and I went to this Japanese restaurant close to our house last night and I got Filet Mignon Teriyaki. Well, when it arrived, it was very rare. RARE.... So, I had to send it back for more cooking, so I could eat it. So, next time, I have to make sure that I ask about the amount of cooking on said steak. They were very nice about it. All you really have to say is 'pregnant' and everything is okay. :)

I am also probably going to go to Target and look at preggo clothes today. Even with the minimal weight gain, my stomach continues to grow and I will very soon be out of pants that I can wear around the waist. I have one pair that's doing okay, but the other pair was out to the edges on the hair band that I am using to close it. And my shirts are getting shorter around my tummy. So, it's gonna be hanging out and nobody wants that. ha ha.

There are Old Navy with maternity clothes around, but the closest is the one at Grand Avenue and I would really have to have a lot of gumption to go down there, esp. w/ Christmas coming up. We'll see...

Anyway, I'm going to pee. Story of my life.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

14 weeks and whatever

The nausea continues....

I do okay if I can rest, but work kills me. Seriously.

I was doing pretty well last week. Monday was good, Tuesday was better. Wednesday...I waited too long to eat breakfast and things went down hill pretty freakin' fast. By Thursday, I looked like hell and I barely had the energy to haul my body around work. I tried to eat soup and an apple for lunch -- things that normally would make me feel okay and it was not good. I felt worse, as if that were possible.

So, I came home early on Thursday and rested upstairs for a couple of hours. Then, I gave up on life altogether and took my zofran, which I have really been trying to stop. I still looked terrible, I guess, because Jake came home and said as much. It didn't really bother me, because I felt too bad to care.

BUT, I was better yesterday and today. So, I'm hanging in there.

If it's not nausea, it's indigestion. It's really frustrating for me. I'm such a control freak and I don't take change well. And currently, I've got something going on in my body that I have absolutely no control over, which makes me sad. Depressed. Frustrated. So many feelings.

Only 6 more months to go, right? :)

Cross your fingers and think girl for me.

In pregnancy related news:

Friday morning, I walk into my boss's office and she proceeds to "talk" (i.e. reprimand) at me for making a silly typo on a document that I had to send out for a new customer -- ordinarily, not a big deal. However, it was in conjunction with me not double checking my work on something else and I got talked at. I think that it was more frustrating for me because she asks me what's going on with me. Those type of errors are totally out of character for me, which she said as much, and it's just like, YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!!!!! I'm PREGNANT!!! It's not like I'm the same old same old for 9 months and then a stork brings a baby at the end. These old ladies forget what that was like, I think. Plus, I think that I am having a more difficult time with everything that most women. I can't tell you how draining it is to be nauseous 24-7. But, those type of errors happen. IDK why I typed 57.56 instead of 57.25!!! WHO CARES!!! It's $.31!!!! JEBUS!! So, I was a little frustated with that. Plus, since I've been totally burnt out from work for the past 2 months (basically the whole time that I've felt sick), so I just don't care when I screw up. I'd prefer to be fired almost. Well, okay, not REALLY, but you know what I mean. I haven't had a real vacation since early July and I don't get one until the end of December. That's a long freakin' time. I was going to ask if I could take a day or two without pay, but now that I'm on the radar as "not a good employee" (which is such a bunch of bullshit, I know that there was more that was not said about that to me, but I couldn't take much that morning and started crying almost immediately, which shut my boss up pretty fast, because she felt bad then), I'm sure that it would be out of the question. No matter how much I would need it.

Anyway, that's my rant/vent for this week. Hopefully, there's not more next week. I just want to stay off the radar and do my job. Or I'll just go do something else. I'm not picky at this point.


My next appt is November 20th at 4:45pm. Hopefully at that appt, I will get to schedule my AFP test and my anatomy scan (hopefully, including GENDER!). I also picked out my bedding, for sure. I'll post a picture at some point. It's pretty gender neutral, I think. And it's got sheep on it. :)