Time rolls on

Really, there's only 9 weeks left. 8 weeks until I go on my maternity leave.

I'm still busy being in denial. I'm sure that I'll freak out at some point, but not yet.

Shower invites went out -- hopefully, you'll get yours soon. :)

So far, just my parents friends are coming. ha ha. That's okay. I know them. And they have known me since I was small.

Today I need to finish mudding the closet and then move all the tools/construction crap out of the baby's room. THEN, I need to steam clean the carpeting in there again, because I'm sure it's full of dust and other yuck. Then, I can paint on the texture and I'll paint the closet blue and then Jake can put up some shelves and hanging bars for me. Hopefully, by the end of next weekend, this will all be done. Because then the nursery will be finished, except for my furniture.

I think once his room is done, it will probably be more real to me and I will freak out. maybe. I just can't see myself doing it. I don't freak out too much anymore. I'm much more mellow. I'll freak out in my own special way.

Next appt on Thursday. I think that I might start going every two weeks after this, but I am not sure. I will be almost 32 weeks on Thursday, so you'd think it would probably be time for semi-weekly appts. Then, at 36 weeks, I assume I get to go once a week until I explode.

What a road this has been. I can't believe we're coming down to the end of it. It's been over a year since I was first pregnant and over a year since the first miscarriage. I was so young and innocent then. HA! Seriously, that sort of thing really changes how you feel about getting/being pregnant. I am very happy for the people who have had no problems, because it's not something I'd wish on my worst enemy. It just sucks. And what they say about the pregnancy memory is true -- I remember how bad I felt while I had morning sickness/all day sickness, but once it was gone, I didn't care. All the aches and pains and weight gain and whatever -- it won't matter.

And I'll do it again. But, probably not for at least 2-3 years.