Overdue and cranky

Mostly cranky at the doctor though.

I don't really mind being overdue, so much in that I just want him to be here, so I can get started in on that.

It's very depressing being totally ready for something that isn't coming. I'm close to cracking.

TMI alert!!!!
So, I guess I never blogged this -- Friday afternoon, I had a lot more discharge of "stuff" than I normally have, and it had a bit of pink in it. And Saturday morning, there was more, but this time it was featuring brown (which is old blood).

Continuing on....

I told the doctor about the discharge I have been experiencing since Saturday morning, and he basically just attributed it to the internal exam I had Thursday. Seems logical, right? Unless you factor in the part where I haven't spotted from an internal exam EVER in my life. The only time I have spotted was either my girlie no-no time or my miscarriages. Oh, and one time with this little guy, but clearly that worked out just fine.

Then, they want me to call Wednesday, to find out his schedule for Friday, so I can come back, since he's out of the office Thursday afternoon (his normal office hours). During my check today, I guess it wasn't any different than any other exam I've had in the past 4 and a half weeks, which, frankly, is BULLSHIT! Something HAS to be different, because he's lower and I've got this discharge. But, nope. I'm not at a stage where I'm "inducable", because my BP is ok. So fucking what? I bet my BP doesn't spike that much -- and in fact, I bet a "normal" BP is high for me. I bet my BP is high now, because I've been pretty ticked off all day.


I was pretty close to arguing with him today about it, but I was really tired, really upset and not wearing pants, which makes it hard to argue about anything. When you're not wearing pants. And I was ready to burst into tears when he said that I wasn't coming back until Friday.

So, send some good "go into labor" thoughts my way for the rest of the week. Because, if I'm still preggo on Friday, I'm probably just going to cry.